south african films – or even any feature…so blunt…such blatant manipulation…if it’s well engineered, then yea sure, it tugs at the emotions, it makes one feel this or the other, but it’s a cheat, you know, it’s trying to move…where’s the real stuff gets done? the stuff that gets under your sin, the real beauty, or am i being snobbish and jealous and doctoral and the rest of it? no, i think not, i think i can appreciate what the circus is without wanting to be part of it, without thinking i could make it a good fit…my horizons are murkier, more worrisome, less clear…by not making commerce my aim, not wanting to make that object (is this possible without rejecting it outright?) there’s more i’m searching for or grappling in the dark for…more accidental…more spirit filled, more spiritual…<is it really tho? or is that an excuse?> - i mean what do i really want to write? of great love, of great sacrifice, of whom i really would admire, of true wisdom and insight and compassion and whittling away at something to warm the heart’s chambers, the mind’s eyes…
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